Showing posts with label Wickie Stamps. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Wickie Stamps. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Southern Syncope

Some things stick in my memory. Maybe that is what memory is - a stickiness with time where certain events float through one's consciousness. Like flotsam, but with people drifting in its midst. The 1959 Bethlehem Steel strike is one such piece of detritus. Involving a dozen steel mills across the US, it was a strike that lasted six months. My stepfather was one of those strikers. I remember him and my mother living in a housing project near the children's home me and my siblings were in. My mother and stepfather lived off of the union's strike fund, a coffer that grew slim as each month ticked by. I was flipping through Ghostly Ruins: America's Forgotten Architecture looking at photos of abandoned buildings. I am soothed by black and photographs of things from my past and earlier - cars from the '50's, prisons, mental institutions. Maybe it is because I am of that era; perhaps it is due my being a Southern. A malady in and of itself, my sense of time lopes along at a pace that is out of synch with other parts of the US. I think this is the Southern illness. Born and raised there, it was not in synch with the rest of the country. It is as though it has a stuttering relationship with time preferring to dwell in its own past. It was in that book that I stumbled across photos of Bethlehem Steel. It was then that I fell into my rabbit hole of memory.

There's more to be said on this syncopated sense of time that is so much the my experience of being from the South. But, for now, I thought I might just give you a link to the photography of the Southern author Eudora Welty and leave it at that.

Monday, August 24, 2009

On Spiders, Shaman-girls and Louise Bourgeois

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I just got a tattoo of a spider. There was a tangled web of motivations behind this decision. The hallucination was primary. Methadrine-induced and 30 years in my past, that hallucination or vision - I can never discern the difference – stuck in my head. Hallucinations tend to stick with a person. Especially if they are of very large SUPER creepy spiders that show up while you're flirting with your college advisor. I am not an actor, but I can guarantee you, carrying on a conversation as though everything is normal while a three-foot arachnid leers at you from over your lust-interest's shoulder, demands a command performance. I think I handled the situation rather well. My Southern training in manners, which insists that no matter what, you remain genteel, occasionally pays off like that.

My shaman–yes, I see spiders and shamans but no dead people as far as I know–thinks the spider was trying to tell me something. "Sure," I said. "Run! motherfucker, run like the wind!" We both laugh.

My second inspiration for my tattoo was murder: I killed way too many wolf spiders as a child. Good God Almighty, those things that cruised through my Southern childhood home were about 4 inches wide and COULD JUMP! Second only to the previously mentioned gargantuan hallucinatory beast, hairy pole-vaulting things scare the be Jesus out of me. So crush, crunch and squash I did. I wreaked karmic spider hell on myself. Thus Veronica—the name of my spider tattoo.

I should have probably named my newest skin art Louise since it was the 30-foot high spider iron sculptures of Louise Bourgeois that I used as a prototype for Veronica. I was particularly charmed by her spidey sculpture that is down by the waterfront here in San Francisco. Entitled Crouching Spider, it is the only thing that will get me to venture into the foreign territory of SF’s financial district (that and when my boyfriend begs me to pick him up for any work he may snag down there).

So there you have it. The tale of my tattoo, my shaman and the odd hallucinations I suffer from.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Buried Under a Heap of Literature

Well, I am at it again reading China Mieville. I'd stopped reading Perdido Station, but I could not get the dark brain-sucking flying things out of my head. So I found it buried beneath the easily-two-hundred unread books in my kitchen. Yes, my kitchen as I ran out of space in my hallway, my bedroom as well as in my meditation room. I also picked up Mieville's newest book The City and The City as began reading that too. I lost them book in my bed-also filled with at least twenty unread/half-read books, articles and 'zines. What is the fucking need to bury myself alive with books. Christ, I just had an ephiphany. I am buried alive. And forgot. Now I am remembering. I was in a library when it collapsed. And there I still lie. I am under the pressure of a thousand books all of various genres. I keep buying books and recreating the stress in the hopes that I will jog myself out of my daze, wake up and try to get out from under the paper tomb I am in. I suddenly feel relieved because I am merely trapped under a collapsed library. I'd prefer that to the reality that I actually have to READ all the books, newspapers and magazines I keep buying.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Legless Maniacs in Need of Couples Therapy

This week I decided I need to take my brain to couples counseling.
"NOOOOOOOOO!!!!," it screamed banging itself so hard up against my skull that I wonder if I might not have suffered a contracoup injury (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coup_contrecoup_injury).
"Sorry, we're going," I said. I affected detached attitude. I knew better than to engage with my brain. It is a resentful adolescent with a borderline personality disorder. There is no reasoning with it. You set the limit and just sit through the hell that breaks loose. It did.
"You suck," it said picking up my manuscript and heaving it across the room. I was surprised at this gesture as it is an armless thing. I think it actually hissed at me too. I refrained myself from reacting, something I've done for years. Because it always wins.
"Couples," I reiterated, picking up my manuscript.
"You don't even know what reiterated means. And anyway,I'm going to Berlin." This was a standard tactic of my brain. Threatening to leave me. Wishful thinking on my part. I wanted to say "fine go, good riddance," but I'm supposed to be a practicing Buddhist which means I'm committed to well, at least being civil. I don't roll with compassion. So rather that swear at it, I just shrugged my shoulder.
"I have the checkbook," I said looking over my chronically bent cheap-ass Walgreens wire rims. "And the debit card. And anyway you don't even have a name, much less a passport." Okay, so I barely roll with civility.
"I knew it, you hate me." It sat down in my chair (or rather squished down as it is just a brain. and it has no legs.)
"I do too," it said.
"Do what?" I was confused.
"Have legs." It started to cry which is a major feat for a disembodied brain.
Like I said. Couples therapy is clearly in order here.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Head Wound Podcast #6 - Flashpoint

It's about time, but it is now up–Head Wound podcast #6. In this podcast we discuss the TV pilot episode of Flashpoint, a SWAT-team style show. Flashpoint is set and shot in Canada and stars Enrico Colantoni as the head of the Strategic Response Unit (SRU). Despite being filled with a few too many buff boys, we both agree that Flashpoint has some real surprises that make it a show to keep an eye on. We further discussed the chatter that Flashpoint, written by Canadian authors, may have emerged in response to last falls US Writers Guild strike. Given the success of this first episode (8.23 million viewers in the U.S. and 1.11 million in Canada), CBS is lurking around looking for more imported shows. Yet more outsourcing and potential union-busting tactics? For more information on Flashpoint:
Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sniper_(TV_series); IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1059475/; IMBd News: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1059475/news#ni0264599.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Fugue State update and Homemade Superheros

Jed and I have been madly (and I don't use the word loosely) producing Fugue State, my work-in-progress. A staged reading which Jed directed, this project just premiered to sold-out audiences here in San Francisco. Now, we're at it again, doing a two-night run at The Garage aka 975 Howard (ttp://www.975howard.com/) here in SF. The dates for our encore run are Weds. and Thurs. July 30 and 31st at 8 p.m. If you're in the 'hood check us out especially since the more people we get to show up the more we can pay everyone! Tix are cheap: $15 and $10 at the door. We'll also be showcasing parts of Fugue State at the SF Fringe Festival in September. So check out their website once we're closer to that date: http://www.sffringe.org/.

Jed was also busy working with Rocco a.k.a. Katastrophe (http://www.katastropherap.com/bio.html) on Homemade Superheroes (http://www.sfstation.com/home-made-super-hero-e346071). An amazing one-time show, according to SFStation.com Homemade Superheroes "draws a parallel between the double life of a super hero to the experience of a transperson." Jed did an incredible job on the animation for the project which was synced to Rocco's styling lyrics.

That'll do it for now.